This is to the little girl who felt she needed to fight for the love, affection and attention from those around her.
You were not wrong for fighting with every ounce of strength that you had in the best ways you knew how to.
You did the best with what you had and what you knew at the time. Good job.
Your worth wasn’t dependent upon their actions or lack thereof, it never was and certainly never will be.
My heart aches for the pain you have been carrying around for so long, believing that something was wrong with you. I see you, I am here for you and I love you.
You were never given the right tools that were tailored to you so that you could feel loved and validated.
The people who you were seeking love and connection from were also wounded. Blind leading the blind as you will. Now that you know better you can do better.
I see the pain, the fears, I see it all. I see the love, the hope and beauty within it all. You will be okay. Even if you lose everyone and everything along the way, you will rise. I assure you.
The validation you were desperately seeking, it lies within you. The love, the truth, all of the answers, again it lies within you. YOU are and always will be everything you will ever need.
To the little girl crying alone wanting to be saved. To the little girl wanting to be loved and understood. To the little girl who had her whole life turned upside down over and over again. To the little girl who felt she had nowhere to turn. The one always shrinking and changing to fit in.
To the young adult running from good friends afraid of what would happen if she stayed. To the young adult afraid of being abandoned again. To the young adult who ran from everything good in her life to preserve what little she felt she had.
You deserve more. You deserve it all. You are worthy. You are amazing. And I absolutely positively love you!