Transcending Reality

Life through the eyes of Angel

Preparing for a new baby is both exciting and scary. There are so many things to do that sometimes it become overwhelming. Being that we already have a son who is only 3, we still have a lot of the things that are essential for newborns and babies. All we had to do is get them down from the attic, clean them and set them up for our bundle of joy. Stocking up on dispers

I have listed down below a few things that we absolutely loved that could be beneficial for those of you expecting as well. Let me know if it has helped any of you.

Sleepy baby:

  • Crib- fitted sheets, mattress protectors, mobile (while it isn’t completely necessary it is helpful)
  • Bassinet- to keep baby close, ours mostly collects dust because baby sleeps with me
  • Sound machine
  • Co sleeper

Baby clothes:

  • Make sure to have clothes for baby that come in all sizes. While the smaller sizes are adorable your baby will out grow them quickly. Trust me, at 3 months old she is already in 6-9month clothing
  • Soft washcloths, towels.
  • Lots and lots of burp cloths
  • Sleep and play, the ones that zipper make it super easy. They even have ones that zip from the bottom up, super helpful when its time for changes

Toys and such:

  • Baby swing
  • Bouncer
  • Pack and play
  • Sit me up chair
  • Soft blocks, soft toys

Feeding and whatnot:

  • Breastpump (most, if not all insurances will cover this) and accessories
  • Bottles, we like dr browns but it’s babies preference
  • Pacifiers
  • Teethers
  • Bottle warmer

Please note:

This is our preference and what works best for us. We breastfeed most often with occasional bottle of breast milk. It just makes our lifes easier and allows me to do other things like taking a bath. Yes please.

Medicine and diaper changes:

  • Childrens tylenol, same thing as infant but you get more for your money
  • Diaper cream anything with zinc oxide works like boudreaux butt paste.. but also earth mama nipple cream works wonders
  • Hyland teething tabs
  • Gripe water
  • Gas drops

Please note:

Always check with your pediatrician. Medications should only be given with doctor approval.

With much love and gratitude ,

Angel Leah

My heart is full, my pain is grand.


It took alot for me to get where I am today. I didn’t get here unscathed. My heart has been ripped out and trampled on too many times I have lost count. I have bruises and scars that tell stories that I don’t even remember. The pain is there, but where there is pain there is so much beauty.

My heart is full of so much love. I am filled with so much gratitude. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU.

Thank you for the pain that I have endured and will in the future, for without that I cannot grow or experience the depth of love and empathy that comes along with it.


I didn’t always think this way or truly believe it. It took me a long time to get this point. I needed alot of healing because I carried so much pain. I still need healing but now I have the tools and understanding to help me through.

Pain is what makes life beautiful.

Just remember though, you do not need to live in it.

For such a big part of my life I ran from everything. I didn’t know how to cope with the pain. I didn’t know who or what I was becoming and that scared me. I didn’t want to face anything. I didn’t want anyone to see me for who I really was.

A scared, hurt little girl.

I felt alone in such a big scary world. Fear of abandonment gripped deep in my core. Fear of rejection tore me apart. I was literally my own worst nightmare.

I literally ruined everything that was good for me because I felt that I didn’t deserve it.

I know better now.

I am fortunate to have people in my life who never stopped believing in me. Who helped raise me up from the depths of the hell that I continued to create. The one that held me captive for years.

Thank you to everyone who ever believed in me, loved me and accepted me. I love you all.

I’m over it.

You know,

Losing sleep over things out of my control.

Letting others opinions weigh me down.

Losing myself at the expense of others.

Today I actively choose different, because I know different.

I may not know it all nor do I intend to. But after decades of living a life not in alignment with who I truly am I’m throwing the towel in.

I am not perfect. No. But I am perfectly imperfect. And that is such a beautiful thing. For far too long I hid parts of me for fear of what others may believe. Now I come out from the depths of my soul to breathe, to simply be.

If you can’t tolerate what you believe to be my flaws then you certainly cannot experience my assets.

There are times I am downright cranky and then there are times I like to play. There are times I want to be left alone and yet times I like to party. There are moments when I want to sing and those when I want to cry. I have always been this way. But now not only will I allow it, I will fully embrace it.

It is so easy to go with the flow, allowing others to dictate who you are. It is easy to not stand up for yourself and back down so as to not ruffle any feathers. I was so good at that. Bending to what others perceive me as. But thats the beauty of perception as everyone does indeed have one.

Now I choose, if something goes against what I believe in to either say something or walk away.

Yes it really can be that simple. And no it won’t always be that easy.

But I choose me, I choose love. Self love, all love. You know that saying, you can’t pour from an empty cup. No, no you cant.

I hope you choose to lose it.

Lose that excess baggage that you have been lugging around.

Lose that pain that you have been holding onto

Lose the thought and feelings from others that weigh you down

Lose it all and find yourself.

Often times I forget that I am human. That I do make mistakes and I may not always make the best choices. Although I really do have the best intentions, my actions may disprove them. There are many instances, especially now, that my patience is slim to non existent. While I will agree that is nothing to boast about; it is the truth and that is precisely how I choose to live accordingly.

Come back to love, that is where you will thrive.

The past is in the past so as long as we learn from it. We will continue making the same mistakes, often passed down from past generations, if we don’t first look within. We need to do better for future generations. It begins with me because frankly if I don’t walk the walk how could I ever talk the talk?

I have been watching my son and how I respond to him. Such a beautiful soul he has and no I am not just saying that because I am his mother; okay I may be a little biased but still.

Just today, I was so frustrated because he was getting peanut butter everywhere. I put his screaming almost two month old sister in the rocker, wiped his hands and the couch and stormed into the kitchen. Fuming thinking of such a mess that was made. After I came out of the kitchen I noticed his sister wasn’t crying, in fact she was sleeping! He put her pacifier in her mouth and turned it on so it would rock her!

Astounded, I asked him if he did that. He sure did! This boy who I was just mad at two seconds ago blew me away with his kindness. He pushed me right back into love showing me that is where you thrive. In that moment I realized who cares if he has sticky fingers touching everything? Who cares if the place is a mess? My son just lovingly helped his sister to fall asleep. He saw she was distressed and in need of comfort and swooped right on in and helped.

I could either react to the situation as I was doing or I could respond lovingly.

This is a lesson I am grateful for. Not only did it show me to have a little more patience, but it also reminded me that he is learning and is also human. He is seeing what we are doing, how we respond, he is taking it all in. I could either react to the situation as I was doing or I could respond lovingly. I could teach him by showing him as that is exactly how he is learning. Be proud that he was actually eating his peanut butter and apples instead of a happy meal. In order for me to do that I first need to remember that I am not perfect, because that is where the solution exists. I was too concerned with the mess to realize the beauty within that moment. I cant teach him from a place of love if I am unhappy with where I’m at.

I am grateful that I was able to come back to love so quickly, for it shows all of the hard work I have already put in. Whereas I am also grateful for the impatience because that proves that there is work to be done.

I am grateful for being able to be a mother for it has been such a huge catalyst for my growth. Yes I was already expanding but now I need to I have no other choice.

With much love and gratitude,

Angel Leah